This evening I will have (hopefully) more audio bits to share with the world. I am following my heart and not really trying to overthink things, so it was very encouraging to have so many of my friends and family stop by my blog and listen to what I have produced so far. No comments yet, but if it was bad at all, I'm sure I would have heard from someone. No news is good news, right?
As some of you know, I am a firm believer in the Law of Attraction, and try to flood myself with positive thoughts and motivational quotes. Do you know why? I am an actor.
At the very root of my core lies this bit of uncertainty and self-doubt that pushes me. Am I good enough? Am I strong enough? Will this performance be liked and appreciated. So on occasion I get deflated - and (far) too often I take it personally when no one says anything. Like what happened yesterday. I asked for suggestions from my readers to perhaps showcase another genre they might want me to do, or an excerpt from a particular book that might work for me.
No one offered up a single thing.
Ordinarily this would bother me. I'd start thinking, "Crap! Did they not like what I've done? Is anyone actually reading this? Jesus, do they even like me?" Etc, etc, and I downward spiral.
Not doing that this time. It's a Saturday. People get busy with errands, chores, family time. No time to give a proper response to me. I get it now. True, they were all over Facebook. Lots of photo shares and status updates, and pictures of food. I still don't get that. But whatever.
This is for me. I'm going to do this because my heart and soul tell me so. This is the right choice. I'm done overthinking it.
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